Sometimes, you just get in a funk and get stuck. Stuck in this weird mood and can't get out. That's how I've been feeling lately, but luckily a series of events happened to kick me out of this funk and got me thinking differently.
I tend to isolate myself and being the introvert I am, doesn't help one bit. I love my solitude and quiet times and need it to recharge and feel like myself. But sometimes it inhibits me from putting myself out there and meeting new people. It sucks when I do actually want to socialize because no one is there, and it leaves me feeling lonely.
So, with that said, I've been taking baby steps in getting out into the world and connect.
I signed up for a Young Life college bible study and was hesitant to go at first. Of course my natural instinct and thoughts were, it won't work out, it will be weird and, no one will like you. But, luckily I try things at least once, so Tuesday night I headed out with a quick prayer that it would work out and made my way there. Man, it was such a beautiful drive I can't even begin to describe... the night was clear and crisp and the stars and moon were shining so bright in between the trees... ugh. Anyways, I get there and was warmly greeted. Other girls got there later and they were friendly and I felt welcomed. So it was a good start. The rest of the bible study was really good, and I connected with the message in many ways. Especially how I know God has so much more for me, as in I know he sees me so differently than myself and wants me to stop this isolation. For my benefit and His. At the end of the night I was so glad that I went out of my comfort zone because I ended up loving it, even excited for the possibilities this bible study would bring. I decided I would go back.
This little triumph I had helped me to get out of the funk I desperately needed to get rid of. It showed me that it can work out if you put yourself out there. I tend to have a really negative thought process and I'm trying to change that as well, because it continually holds me back and defeats me. I want to have positive thoughts, I want to be happy and I don't want to stress and have anxiety about every. little. thing.
I also just want to add I went to the James Blake concert spontaneously and it was AMAZING. My gosh is that man talented! He has the voice of an angel haha. AND Caryn (my best friend) and I went on an adventure with our cameras and got some beautiful scenery pictures. This week has been full of adventure that was much needed. I need to let myself play more!
